Patience
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@ Jane Lorenzen
The wheels go 'round; the tables turn,
And still I'm lost, after all I've learned.
No tales to tell, no right nor wrong,
No way to ease the night so long.
The colors fade to black and white,
The infamous question of which is right.
No one to ask; my step unsteady,
To admit defeat, I am not ready.
The bond yet strong, the love remains,
Patience, patience, things may yet change.
Calling
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@ Jane Lorenzen
Reach deep, Reach deep, I'm told, I tell,
What will it take
To motivate
A push, or shove, or scream, or yell,
Or none, and just to lose.
But no - there's more,
There's more, but where
There's something I must wear.
Potential
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@ Jane Lorenzen
There it is, just as it seems,
The journey toward the truth, the dreams.
And still, it is just as I've known,
What could, what should, my will to own.
Reaching for what I can't see,
Again, the cloud envelopes me.
But through the smoke, I feel it there,
Waiting for me to prepare.
Searching, reaching, deep inside,
To find the strength I need to try.
Again, the weakness does prevail,
The greatest fear, to try and fail.
Unwilling Resignation
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@ Jane Lorenzen
The rage and frustration now confined,
Safely hidden within my mind.
Bury deep the thoughts that burn,
Bury deep reactions spurned.
Breathe slow, breathe deep, a little air,
The wave subsides, it's just not there.
Trapped within, the lingering echoes,
Trapped within, yet must it close.
The wall is brick, 'tis all in vain,
And still it storms, it fights, it strains.
Defeated, spent, there's nothing left,
There are no options, I must accept.
Masked
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Focus now, and concentrate,
Set your mind, and get things straight.
Capture the storm, and bury it deep,
Long was it dormant, again it must sleep.
Breathe deep, 'tis panic but nothing more,
And it will pass, just as before.
The lightening strikes with sudden force,
Erupting from an unknown source.
Surging, fierce, the waves collide,
Resist the urge to run and hide.
Or perhaps to hide is better yet,
Or make the deal, and pay the debt.
'Tis war I wage within my mind,
Within my heart, the storm is blind.
And yet, within, it burns, it flames,
But yet, without, appears unchanged.
Dreamer Wakened
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@ Jane Lorenzen
The road has taken another turn,
Caught unprepared, yet must I learn.
The storm has passed, the damage remains,
The dust has settled, 'tho all has changed.
Slowly the shock and the numbness subside,
It's real, it's inevitable, and there's no place to hide.
Looking back, like a puzzle, the pieces fall,
Look hard, look long, and see it all.
Like waking from a deep, deep sleep,
Like waking from a dream too sweet.
Realization, disbelief, the truth, the lies,
Slowly, something inside me dies.
Never will it be the same,
Too much to bare, too deep the pain.
Never can it be set right,
The faith is gone, no will to fight.
The lesson learned, as learned before,
This time learn well, this time learn more.
Rebuild the wall, then keep within,
Although the pain will never end.
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